numb.

I've had countless conversations with thousands of people about emotions.
Some have been happy.
Some have been love sick.
Some have been depressed.
Some have felt useless.

I've been numb.

I've been completely void of any emotion.
Lost in time.

I live in my own reality; somewhere where no real being can visit.
I've been submerged in complete nothingness with my companions:
                                Sam and the voices in my head.

Sometimes its pleasant
                 an escape from the stresses and anxieties that others' reality may bring.
Sometimes its scary
                  with voices mumbling.
                              voices screaming. 
                                      voices laughing.
                  with visions of nonexistent enemies hiding in the shadows.
                                        surrounding me.
Sometimes its unwanted 
                    I'm quickly whisked away from happiness and forced to enter my world.
                              Forced to leave everything behind.

But it's not as if I am able to disappear into a far off land, or a kingdom engineered by my own imagination.
I'm still here.
I'm still in your world - but you are gone.

I walk amongst you, visible in a large crowd.
But the crowd is invisible to me.

I walk down the street and past faceless people and walking shadows.

Im stopped for a conversation about the time:
I check my watch.          
                                     "3:45, sir."
                                                         I respond thirty minutes after the man had left.


There is no 'time' in my world. Needless to say, it is completely useless to us here.